Thank you for visiting this page where I will tell you a little about me and why this website exists.
Back in 1986 I was a regular beer drinking, pot smoking Joe Schmoe, just trying to get along in life. I was 30 years old and had been married to my first wife, who was much younger than I for about 3 years. We had two kids and a decent home and I thought things were pretty much OK.
Well, I guess my wife had other ideas, I don’t blame here too much, after all she was only 18 when I first met her, and I guess she just wanted to have some fun, but just not with me anymore! So she started staying out late, and eventually stopped coming home at all. I was devastated, but had to hold it together for my kids.
Things were not going my way, and I always thought I had it all under control, but here was a situation that was completely out of my control, I started to question myself and everything I thought I knew.
Being brought up through the 60s in what I thought was a fairly good home, we did not have everything but we lacked nothing either, or so I thought. My dad died when I was 5 years old, so my mum worked and kept us, 2 brothers, 2 sisters and me as best she could. We rarely went to church, except for births, deaths, marriages, and midnight mass at Christmas, which we thought great fun as kids because we could stay up late 🙂
So, to cut a long story short, I had been out drinking and I got home in the wee hours and went into our sitting room and I sat down to roll myself a joint as was my preference in those days, and whilst rolling the joint on my coffee table I noticed a little booklet that a Christian girl I knew had given me, so I thought to myself, I’ll take a look at that once I have lit my joint. So as I lit my joint I grabbed the booklet and sat back to relax.
The Booklet was called Journey into life by Norman Warren
and as I read through this little booklet I thought to myself that it made perfect sense, it talked about how we were all born into sin and needed a savior to put us back in a right standing with God, well, fair enough I thought, but then I got to the penultimate page and it said, that I should say this prayer in order to get back in right standing with God, it’s now probably about 3 am and I furtively look over my shoulder to see that there’s no one watching and said the prayer, then I turned to the last page and it said something like now that you have given your life to Jesus, tell someone within the next 24 hours what you have done, OK, fair enough I thought, but now it’s time to sleep.
The next morning I awoke probably around 10am and made myself a cup of tea and was sitting there coming to, when there was a knock on the door and my friend standing there, so I duly asked him in and was immediately aware of his foul language which I had never noticed before, probably because I used to speak like that too, but now it was Jarring to say the least, I did not like it and couldn’t wait for him to leave, hmm what;s wrong with me I thought?
Later that day I was out and about and I saw this girl that I knew to be a Christian on the high street, so I said to her, hey, Angel (not her real name) I gave my life to Jesus last night, Hallelujah she shouted waving her arms in the air, I immediately grabbed her arms and pulled them down and asked her to please keep quiet, I did not want anyone else to know. She then asked me if I was going to church tomorrow, this being Saturday afternoon, Don’t be silly I quipped, of course not, Angel just looked at me and said, “well, if you really mean what you said, don’t you think you should?” I thought about it for a minute and said to her OK, I will go to church for a month, that is four weeks in a row, and if I don’t see God in that time I’ll just quit, so she said, I’ll call for you in the morning and take you, OK? Oh no I thought to myself, that’s all I need, but what else could I say?
The next morning there is a knock at the door and there was Angel wanting to take me to church, oh great I thought, why did I open my big mouth? anyway she waited for me to get ready then off we went to church. The church was a new church that was at that time meeting in a school gymnasium, so I am walking in the doors feeling very self-conscious and uneasy, and there were all these weirdos standing around singing some kind of song with their hands in the air, oh no, what have I let myself in for this time thought I? Then something strange and odd happened.
To explain the oddity of what happened we have to go back in time to when I was a very young boy. I remember my older brother hitting me and I ran to my mum crying, looking for sympathy, but mum just looked at me and told me to stop crying and be a man, or words to that effect, so consequently I thought that it was wrong to cry, so from that day on and for the next many years I did not cry, or if I did no one ever saw it.
So, back to the church with all the weirdos, There I am feeling very hot and bothered and a kind of energy or heat waves were rushing down from my head towards my feet, I start looking around and looking out the windows because I was looking to see God, or some sign, a lightning flash or something remember? Well, I did not see anything, so, still feeling very hot I looked at the screen where the words of the song that all the weirdos were singing, and the words were about Jesus dying on the cross, the next thing I know is something or someone touches my face, and as I put my hand up to my face I was almost shocked to feel wet stuff on my cheek, oh my gosh, I am crying in public and I don’t care!
As I made this awkward discovery, I knew that I had met God, the pulsating heat started to wear off a bit and I remember thinking to myself, oh Jesus I am so sorry for what you had to suffer on that cross, but I am thankful that you did it for me.
So there you have it, I was hooked, I went from halfheartedly saying a prayer very late one night, stoned and drunk too, but God heard my prayer and took me at my word, I asked Him to save me and I did not know it at the time but He did. I went to a church looking for a miracle because one of His daughters asked me to go, In my tiny mind I was looking for a sign and God in his mercy and love showed me a sign, it was not the sign I was looking for, I guess I was looking for a visual sign but God did the sign deep in my heart which I cannot deny, I guess if He showed up the way I was expecting, maybe I would not still be a believer and God who knows all thing knew that so He did His great work in my heart so that I could never forget just what He did for me.
Thank you, Jesus.
Wanting to give back
For whatever reason, God saved me from myself, when all I did was halfheartedly utter a few words, I was not worthy in my eyes to receive such grace from an almighty God, but then again none of us are. I am not perfect but I am forgiven, and I know that if God took me at my word He will do just the same for you, if you ask Him.
The goal of this site is simple.
To know Him and make Him known.
I have copied the exact same prayer that I prayed all those years ago from
And it’s my hope and prayer that you too will say it, even if you say it halfheartedly as I did, I know God will hear you.
If you do say this prayer, I would ask that you please contact me and let me know.
In His majesty’s service.